SNRUIRNHAIBLILHAARHY

Sunday, July 18, 2010.

As soon as you receive my message, you would go to this link. And as soon as you finished, if you are not heartless, you would think what you've done. I don't need your sorry.

I'm sorry that i've kissed you, and i'm sorry that i trust your words.

And i'm sincerely, really sorry for saying sorry to somebody who is not supposed to be sorried. Because i don't live to please people around.

I let everything flow in god's hand. Everything. Alhamdulillah.

We were so good, everything was okay. You're such a nice boy. You have a beautiful family. You're so young in heart. You listen to all of my dumb story. Your heart is so soft. You listen to my lame gossips. You tried to give me responds back eventhough you don't understand what i'm talking about. We always laugh at eachother. We even fight with eachother, eventhough my hand hurts when you keep on punching me. I cherish that, i like it like that.

But you seem so confused, and don't know which way you're going. Please, get a nice friend that is neutral to consult you.

I have my dignity. That is the why i have to get away curses from people which are not healthy.

This has effect my friendships.

Maybe, she's just unhappy that i'm going out with her ex-boyfriend. It's a poor thing that she still couldn't get over it.

I was called a bitch, i repeat, a BITCH for no reason and my friend who i trusted acted like she knows nothing just to dig shits out of me. I don't know how much she got paid for that. I feel disgust with girls throwing too much vulgarities. Eeeew.

Please baby, don't drag me into this situation. That girl has been talking about me everywhere. It's either you've noticed it, or you ignore it just because you think for yourself. How am i suppose to face my friends when she told them i'm like a "boyfriend-snatcher" "kawan makan kawan", eventhough she's not my friend, that's what public don't know.

Please reflect. Where were you on Friday, 16 of July 2010, 12.27 AM when i was actually waiting for your message. Please don't use excuses such as "meet my mum later" to cover everything. Oh come on Sri, how could you not know that? -_-"

And what have you talked to her on that day? Please, don't lie to her. Don't break her feelings, mend what you said. When a girl takes in a guy's word, she really kept it in heart and forever won't forget.

Nope, she never tell me anything. Not her friends, not your friends. But i saw it with my own eyes. It was so clear, it touches my heart deeply,in depressed now.

Well i'm okay with it. Atleast i'm leaving this behind, and you're stuck with it.

I'm sorry. I'll have to thank god that this has happen so quickly that he doesn't want us to move a step a head.

All i want is love. from one person a great big giant hug and his arms around me making everything okay. but that's obviously not possible.

My life's in a mess. yes, i miss you so much and i really mean it. this is the most hurtful, ugliest and disgusting thing i'm facing.

My head hurts, my eyes are swollen, i'm so weak. I didn't realise it's 3 AM. I was in my room sobbing. I've not eaten, i can't eat. I'm meeting bestfriend soon.

Goodnight.

I love you.

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