Maybe, other girls have been worst. I don't care. I'm me, i'm not the other girls. I'm fragile. I'm scared of boys. Reason being, i've seen how my cousins fight. I've encounter alot how guys act when they hate it, they don't like it. When i was young, everytime my late dad pressured me to study. I used to get beaten up, if i gt the wrong answers. Few years back, i've seen how my uncle beat my aunty up. She was crying and vomitted blood all over. So from there i've seen how cruel guys are.
At first, when i have a boyfriend, i thought i was lucky. I never like guys before. He was my first. I thought he was definitely someone i'm settling down with. People only have three chances in life. He misused it. However, i've forgiven him over what had happen. Remember, everyone has to forgive eachother. You wouldn't want to leave alone in this world. No matter how painful the situation is, you still have to remember, you once love him so hard before and he was once in your life. I've given him a chance, again.

And now, i've seen myself ‘walking on eggshells’, being careful that i don’t upset him. This is wrong.

Many people blame themselves if they’re treated badly. You must have done something to deserve it – right? Wrong.
Abuse is never your fault. It’s not ok for someone to hurt you, be mean or nasty, or get aggressive or violent.

EVEN IF;
you made them jealous
you were late or forgetful or thoughtless
you don’t want to have sex or to be affectionate
you’re depressed
you still stay with them even though they hurt you
you flirted with someone else
you don’t agree with them
you’re sick or have a disability and need them to help you
you want to break up with them.
They don’t have to treat you badly.
We all feel stressed, upset, angry or hurt at times in our lives. But we can all calm ourselves down, talk to others or take a break. We have a choice how we act, and we don’t have to take out our feelings on other people.

Please. Girls are weak. They can cry on the most slightest thing. You can see her strong and not crying on the outside. Try, try talk to her nicely after that, she'll cry. She loves you. That's why she's still there even when you embarrass her on public. She needs you to play both roles in her life. One, her Boyfriend. Another, her Bestfriend.

Love;
ME